Just Plain BITCHY...

OK... so I am in a BITCHY mood... go figure... LOL... I just don't feel like being all "nicey nice" right now... which in all actuality really bothers me... because I try really hard to keep my BITCHINESS in "check" MOST of the time... to not "speak my mind"... or give my OPINION (unless it is asked for... but even THAT can be tricky)... I have learned over the years (the biggest "revelation" coming in my early 30s) that there ARE things and PEOPLE that I am NEVER going to be able to change... nomatter how much I may desire the change... Not everything is BLACK and WHITE... sometimes it's GREY... and once I realized that... it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders... but LATELY... LATELY... I have felt that weight on my shoulders again... I don't know if it is my struggle with being 40 (and just let me say... I have STRUGGLED with being 40)... or the fact that I have felt "stiffled" in situations (where in the past I would've just stood up and expressed my UNSOLICITED OPINION or FEELINGS and be damned what ANYONE ELSE thought)... I just don't know... but I DO KNOW... that in MY MIND... the BITCH that "everyone" THINKS I am... is QUIETLY comtemplating HERSELF...