Just Plain BITCHY...

OK... so I am in a BITCHY mood... go figure... LOL... I just don't feel like being all "nicey nice" right now... which in all actuality really bothers me... because I try really hard to keep my BITCHINESS in "check" MOST of the time... to not "speak my mind"... or give my OPINION (unless it is asked for... but even THAT can be tricky)... I have learned over the years (the biggest "revelation" coming in my early 30s) that there ARE things and PEOPLE that I am NEVER going to be able to change... nomatter how much I may desire the change... Not everything is BLACK and WHITE... sometimes it's GREY... and once I realized that... it was like a weight being lifted off my shoulders... but LATELY... LATELY... I have felt that weight on my shoulders again... I don't know if it is my struggle with being 40 (and just let me say... I have STRUGGLED with being 40)... or the fact that I have felt "stiffled" in situations (where in the past I would've just stood up and expressed my UNSOLICITED OPINION or FEELINGS and be damned what ANYONE ELSE thought)... I just don't know... but I DO KNOW... that in MY MIND... the BITCH that "everyone" THINKS I am... is QUIETLY comtemplating HERSELF...

BLAH BLAH BLAAAAAAAAAAH...

If my "Aunt Flo" doesn't get here SOON for her "monthly visit" I think my head just may EXPLODE... I've taken more TYLENOL than is probably legal... and if my Husband looks sideways at me ONE MORE TIME... I think I just MIGHT punch him in the head!!!

DESPERATE!!!!!...

We have been TEASED... by Mother Nature... fleeting moments of sunshine... in between squalls of snow... for the past week... and it is getting OLD... (according to our local paper we have seen a total of THREE days of sunshine since Jan..1... THAT is just WRONG!!!)

In our area... it is a "Hot Topic"... How DESPERATE everyone is to see the sun... Everyone includes ME... I am DESPERATE...

I have felt myself slowly being "drained" of any motivation... grumpy (although that is not entirely due to a lack of sunlight)... absent minded... distracted... just BLAH...

CLOUDY... SNOWY... COLD... CLOUDY... SNOWY... COLD...

I'm becoming DESPERATE for some SUN SUN SUN to warm my bones and brighten my mood...